Seeking independence... with reluctance.

I'm not even sure if the title for this one makes any sense, but that's how I feel right now. Just getting out of a relationship with someone I still care about is really difficult, even though I refuse to cut all ties with him and just want to stay friends. I know being in a relationship should be the last thing on my mind but... sigh. :( And on top of that... there's other problems and oh my gosh, I'm just so confused. I want to be independent. I want to do things for and by myself from now on... so why did I agree to go see the Perseid showers with him tomorrow night? Just what the hell is wrong with me?

Provoked dimsum is now going to jump into a tub of hot boiling water now. Maybe then she'll die and won't have to deal with these things that confused and clutter my mind.

Turning a new leaf

I think I've now created an account for every possible weblog possible... oh well. I think it's time to start fresh. Which is why I've created this new weblog. :) Yay. To celebrate, I think I'll go and provoke some food.